Silly Thinking

Day 58-

I knew I was going to be sore after this week but I was not expecting this much… wow!    Just a couple sessions into PT and already I’m dreading the long road ahead.  Well, not so much dreading but un-enthused (?) about it.  I don’t mind working at it and working the muscle and joint as it needs to be and I 110% understand that.  But it’s the wobbly leg when I go to walk afterwards and of course getting the stink eye from some of the people there.  I’m not sure what it is about going to PT but there is something about seeing so many older people there that makes it something I don’t like to go and do.  When I had the PT at home I knew there were other older people out there but I didn’t see them so it didn’t bug me to have this surgery and be needing this PT.  But there is something about going there and seeing everyone that I feel, sometimes, worse.  Stupid huh? 

In Time

Day 57-

Phew!  Had PT again today and I was so sore when I walked in and now, even more so now that I’m done.  Thank god for ice is all I have to say!    SO here I am laid up a bit now with a sore, sore muscle and a somewhat sore knee.  It’s strange since the rehab is for the knee but it’s the thigh that hurts so much but I know that it’s also weak and damaged so it’s gonna take time to work it and get it back in shape.  Although I have to say that shape it feels like now is “blobish” and that’s not cool at all.  In time, I have to keep reminding my self, in time.

New Knee Lesson No. 6

Day 56 Wednesday

Boy was I sore today after yesterday.  It also didn’t help that in the evening yesterday I walked around a store with just the cane and what I thought was just running in for one thing turned into running in for several bags of things.  So it was really hard on my leg especially after having PT that day as well.  I go again tomorrow and just know that I’m gonna be sore even more.  My goal today is to stay in bed or at least take it easy and ice it and relax.  It’s amazing how much ice can help!  So, New Knee lesson No. 6, “ICE, ICE, BABY!!”.  It’s a pain to have to run back and forth or to keep asking a loved one for ice packs but let me tell you that it helps so much!!  It takes down the swelling, it can help the pain and it just seems to ease the joint.  So find what works and keep it up!!  I personally love using ice and use it often.

Here We Go Again!

Day 55-

So today was my first day of PT.  Couldn’t believe it when my therapist was saying that I’m starting off where a lot of people end.  Makes me feel good that my in-home therapist did so much for me but that my motivation to get better is helping.  This doesn’t mean that PT was easy today and that it was all unicorns and butterflies and rainbows.  Oh hell no, it’s hard hard work now.  I have to keep working on that thigh strength and that right now is the hardest thing.  My thigh is weak, very weak compared to where its been in the past.  Bending my knee and whatnot, that’s fine and I have no problem with that.  Its just not having the strength or the ability to walk far or do to much yet.  Its still really stiff and weak and that’s the major problem right now but I’m working through it and that’s all I can do in the end.

PT, Phase 2

Day 54-

I start outpatient PT tomorrow and “THANK GOD!”.  I can already feel a difference from taking that break.  It’s getting stiffer though I’ve got it bending a lot more.  But it feels stiff and it’s been hurting more.  However, I don’t know if it’s because of the weather which took a sudden drop in temperature around here or if it’s the lack of PT.  I mean, sure I’m exercising but they are the same ones I’ve been doing for a while so maybe I’ve just gotten used to them and they are just becoming less effective.  Needless to say, I’m excited to start working on the knee again and getting back again to life.  Not that things aren’t getting better but I feel a stall in the progress and I’m looking forward to getting stronger!

Shoes

Day 53-

So I’ve been racking up the “Rock Band” points on my PlayStation.  I’m totally loving being a diva in my living room and well, being able to sit on my couch again!!  It’s still a little hard to sit there and I haven’t tried to sit there for an afternoon yet but for an hour or two while I play my game I seem fine.  Although for some reason they make me want to wear my high heels again!!  I guess its my inner diva coming out but not yet.  I actually asked my doctor and he said at my next appointment maybe I can start wearing very low heels since they will help my balance, strength and my self esteem.  Think about it, I’m a girl who loves shoes, but most especially high heels, so if I can start wearing them again I’m bound to be a happier person and that’s gonna help other things as well such as my mood and motivation.  So, I’m ok with a bribe of shoes to keep working the knee!!